Different

One day,
I saw a boy I liked
He had a firm chin and a chiselled trunk
I walked up to him to tell him I liked him
He smiled. He didn’t like me back
The fire was only burning in my eyes
And I thought it would be enough
So I told myself different.

Another day,
The boy asked me out
He did it so plainly that it disgusted me
I bought a rose and pretended it was from him
I told him yes
He wouldn’t like me for long
I knew this but because I wanted to belong to somebody,
I told myself different.

Today,
My boyfriend cheated on me
I knew even before I caught him
But because I wanted to convince myself
He’s more than a man
Up until I opened the door
To all that shattered my world
I told myself different.